in·san·i·ty [in-san-i-tee]the condition of being insane; a derangement of the mind.
Given my current state of mind, and recent contact with a Physiologist, I think it only fitting that I take on a new workout challenge called INSANITY!
I'm hearing exercise is a great step in improving depression.
I gave it a try...didn't last long. (humm...imagine that!)
I pulled a no show for a Triathlon I signed up for (and got 15 other people to sign up for too..sorry!) and apparently left some friends hanging this morning for a bike ride!! ( Just read the email about meeting outside my house at 7am. oops!)
Sam is such a stud right now. He's almost done with P90X. He lost a lot of weight and gained a lot of MUSCLES!! (woot woot!) I watch him manage every calorie that enters his mouth, as I relish in my ice cream addiction.
My drug of choice is ice cream. I putter around like Eeyore all day and then snuggle up to a pint (never less) of Ben and Jerry's. I seriously feel so much better after my pint is gone. It even cured my "I've-been-crying-all-day-head-ache" that tortured me for about 5 hours.
Some people go to alcohol, or drugs, to escape their depression. i totally get it.
This one is my favorite. I eat it right out of the carton!
I'm stuck in the cycle of feeling down so I eat ice cream to feel better for the night then wake up and start counting the hours till I can escape in my ice cream again. (I'll never break it out mid-day. I would have to share it! :)
See, isn't this addictive behavior? Maybe I should start attending Addictive Recovery Classes!
Thankfully, ice cream isn't as harmful as alcohol or drugs, but I escape to it probably just the same and it is leaving it's mark on my body.
It's been 3 months since my depression set in, and today I took a good look in the mirror. I literally did...
I went to Kohl's and tried on a few items. I had no idea my body looks the way it does! There's something about those changing room lights!
I can tell you right where the ice cream is sitting!!
I've got to get my life back!
I did exercise yesterday and today (does learning Hannah Montana's Hoedown Throwdown Dance count??) and I'll admit they were my more productive days. (Productive to a LOW standard...I never got out of my pj's)
Insanity is a 60 day workout which includes a nutrition plan. That's just what I need. I'm pretty sure B&J won't be showing up on the menu! And it takes the work out of Meal ideas!
I HATE COOKING MEALS!!!
The "normal ME" likes a good workout and can handle a challenge so this might kick my butt, but I'm really hoping that it kicks my butt in gear!
Maybe this will be enough to self-medicate the depression.??
I know it's crazy to do something as extreme as Insanity. I hear it's HARD. I'm actually excited to DO something for once!